Had a sleepless night...

Yesterday can't sleep well, cos my eyes are swollen. Think of my her again. Wonder how is she now. Think of the wonderful times and sad times I and her had together.. My heart is hurting again. I am wondering if she is feeling the way or not. Had not been contacting her for a few weeks already. I feel that my life is short of something important, and I'm not feeling well for the past few days. Next wednesday, going hospital again to do the X-Ray examination. Scare what will happen to me. This few days, I can feel a little pain to my bladder. Sigh ! Life is just not very fulfilling to me. Yet on the other hand, still gonna worried about my poly and working time crashing together. So FAN !!